money

after wilson left my heart broke so much and the pain i can barely handle but slyvester been there for me and the guy was infront of me the guy who loves me..i will learn to love him alot..anyways I got my salary today and went shopping!!!bought new shoes and shorts!going p.d tomorrow for huge camp!can't wait!i get to see my baby slyvester!LOVE U LAU GONG!!!

JOB

JOB!!!a word which could kill u!and i mean KILL!!!well..i see manju everyday!WAT FUN!!and fold clothes till i could dream of them!kill me anyone!feeling tired all the time and here i am blogging..oh well that's my life!hehee=p!cant wait to get cash and go shopping!!!i want to go port dickson and genting in December!!!a must in my list!!!okok well when me n manju is bored we dance,sing and act..it was dumb,weird but fun!and not because manju was there!definitely NOT THE REASON!i admire a guy in the shop but nah no more already..long story which made me upset and stress and thinking alot!damn job!why must the world create the word JOB!next Tuesday it will all be over totally cant wait..counting down the days of long labour..ok got to go because well what shall i do tomorrow?ohhh i know!WORK!!!!!weeeee!!!joyyy!(:

the most loveable day

It was the happiest day ever!today i went out with my bie bie!finally can go out with him!he means everything to me!i sososo LOVE HIM!!!!well he reach about two something than he couldn't find me eventhough i was just next to him well not really next to him because a pole was blocking..hahaa=p!after that my bie took me ice skating!so romantic!hahaa=p!we hold hands on the ice and well he was just the sweetest..and he ran on the ice and fall!!hahaa=p!FALL!!it was a moment u just can't miss!hahaaxD!but I'm always loving him..we met two really fun and really nice people!the guy was cute and the gal was pretty!we had so much fun wit them..we played the game tag,on ice!hahaa=p!it was hard like hell to chase each other without falling!my bie was just so loveable!a gal ask my bie for his number and well with his loving heart towards me he said no and that he has a gf already..he was just so full of love today!than after skating till like 6.30 we went to the cinema to watch a movie we wanted to watch the movie named 'the vampire who/which admires me' i heard it is a nice and funny show but when we were there apparently pyramid doesn't have that show!!like what the hell!!!it DOESN'T HAVE THE SHOW!because they don't have it which i have no idea why they don't have it my bie n me watch 'coffin'..so after we bought the movie tickets already we went and eat at a sweet place which the name i have forgotten but the food is GOOOD!i was so happy!after eating it was time for our movie..we were late abit for it..hahaa,we watch than we just went on wit our romantic side!he bought couple sits!he read my mind alright! what a guy!!!hahaa=p!we were lovely but it was a scary movie..so as i was watching it suddenly when i look at my bie he was falling asleep!!hahaa=p!than he woke up and hug me and sleep again!nearly sleep!hahaa=p!but well the movie well was only abit scary and mostly BORING!bie and me regret watching it alright!but well it was still sweet!than after that we walk and walk and walk and well u get my point..hahaa=D!than there was like a bridge to crossover or something like that and as we cross he did the wedding music!i couldn't help but to laugh!hahaa=p!he was like doing the wedding music all the way!TWICE!hahaaa..he promise he will marry me..i keep that promise he made always in my heart..we argue abit because i was jealous!hahaa=p!but it was ok because it took us only one minute than we just couldn't argue..it was just a moment we treasure and just didn't have the heart to fight once our eyes meet..it was going to be 10p.m and i had to leave..he walk me to the entrance and we gave each other a kiss goodbye and i left..i felt so bad that i spend his money and i just feel like I'm not good enough for him..like any gal could replace him..I'm afraid to lose him again..but well overall i really love him,miss him and treasure him always..and it was the sweetest and the most loveable day!he is all i need!(;

Pic's during and after my cousin wedding

Jason

Sorry Jason that i keep rejecting all the times u ask me to go yam cha with u!i feel so bad!sorry!!just that i had many things going on this few days!anyways this guy here named Jason is a great guy and really nice too!(;thanks for all the support u gave to me Jason and SORRY again!!!=/i hope Ur not mad!

Too bored

Well i found a job but gosh it will only start next Monday..well the bad thing is I'm working with manju and i thought i wont see her anymore but god just wouldn't let me not see her..the good thing is gosh the place i work has GUYS!n i mean cute guys!!lucky us!hahaa=p!i will have fun working!today is Tuesday and I'm having tuition like come on teacher who goes tuition on holidays??haiz but oh well what can i say..i have no choice!oh forgot to blog about Friday i went to pyramid and after that it was so kind of matthew to be our bodyguard as we began our journey to a restoran call yuen yuen where we had steamboat for dinner!it was fun!and i met a NEW guy best friend!hahaa=p!he was kind!he carried my beg 4 me!what a man!hahaa=p!and then wei song and matt had a battle of ice cream!it was fun to watch!oh and then on the Sunday i had a wedding diner to attend it was nice!took pic's!haven upload yet...hehe!well luv my cousins!they are just fun and awesome to hang with!!luv u guyss!!love u too bie bie!

to a dude

Im sorry if i hurt u or anything..ur a nice guy but my heart just feels different thats all..u treat me gud but im just not the one thats all..ur reali nice but u can find a better gal and i know that u can too..smiles!(: jus like u told me be4!thankss for the love be4 edmund!(another edmund not the edmund in port dickson its another one which the name is just same thats all)hehee=p!

to aaron koko

Thanksss aaron koko for being the greatest koko of all!and thanks for the birthday present!love it lotss!!!!like ALOT!hahaa=p!he gave a pretty little butterfly necklace!thankss!!!

my love

He was and still is the nicest n greatest guy ever!!!!hahaa=p!well its a long story but after going round and round of searching and months passing us by in the end we found out that we still love each other more than ever and its my ex wilson..i love him for so long and i still do..he was so sweet and i love playing with his nose!hahaaa=p!he bully me first!hahaa=p!so i just pay back!hehee!he couldn't help but laugh and every laugh he gave meant alot to me..a LOT!so well we are starting new..its been one year of knowing each other and searching and well its also an anniversary of how long we been in love wit each other!so happy!oh and i forgot to say..jerynn,wei song,nab,maz,kar sing and len ping(if i spell wrong tell me!),sharon and ytl!thankss for a wonderful birthday!this people celebrate my birthday with me!In the greatest place!BAYWATCH!the manager was awesome!free champagne because it was ladies night that night of my birthday and he gave us extra 2for free whenever we are going back there!how awesome!!hahaa=p!and oh ytl dance waltz with me!love it but it was weird!hahaa=p!jer surprise me with a cake after that!it was the great birthday!and thanks bie bie for the greatest love of all!!!(;

tracy babe

SORRY FOR EVERYTHING N ANYTHING I DID WHICH HURT U!!!!im learning to be more understanding ok babe!sorry my bff!!

when will she ever give up!

MANJU!give up!u actually did say kunci kira-kira!no worries tomorrow is accounts already i know u miss it alot!hahaaa=p!and oh yea today manju trip on a brick and i saw it happen so i LAUGH!and guess what manju say..she said i didn't trip just missed the brick because who puts bricks right there!ahaha=p!she fall alright but she just kept on saying she just trip or the brick wasn't suppose to be there or that she didn't see it!but the truth is she SO totally trip alright!well the other happy thing about today was errmm my birthday is coming!Friday here i come!loving the song t-shirt by Shontelle and other than that is went to mcd after school and well my day became dull n bored and well now I'm writing on my blog!hahaa=p!well manju i always keep my promise when i say I SHALL BLOG ABOUT IT TODAY!hahaa=p!remember it!!!!my word!!!!well got a bit upset today because slyvester still isn't sure about me n him..i guess he still like his ex but i dun know..i guess he is just not ready but he just makes me wonder n think whether is he serious about this..about me..still wondering..


still wondering...well..i dun know!

TO manju

GOSH manju!!!!when will you ever learn!its kata kunci not kunci kira-kira!she said the same thing again for the second time..well actually three times but she just deny the fact!news flash!ITS THE FACT!!!!!xD!thats all i could blog about today oh and yea i will fail moral!sux!but who cares!hahaa=p!ohh and one more thing..

I LOVE SLYVESTER GARNET TOH YEW HAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOVE HIM LOTSS!!!!!!!!

weeeee!

ARRRHH!!!!!pissing off!i type so long on the blog then my computer has to go crazy and now i have to do it all over again!great so well at first i had nothing to say now i got a lot because im piss!but anyways today i went tuition with my gal tracy!we were talking about slyvester and she says his name reminds her of the tweety bird and the cat!gosh tracy!so childish!hahaa=p!and she said the word vandalise!like that is a BIG word for a small gal like u tracy!hahaaaxD!love teasing her!!!

this is the childish babe!lol!

oh and today manju was like so dumb!hahaa=D!we were having a conversation on what to study and it went something like this manju amelia

So amelia we study moral la yea
Yea okay so must we remember the nilai
DUH!!no ar no ar just read
I mean the definasi
Yea must remember the definasi and the kunci kira-kira
LOL!!!!
I mean the kata kunci
LOL!!!!!!a day i shall blog about!

and well i did!hahaa=p!gosh manju!from moral to accounts!and it has a BIG difference!so sad n so LAME!so very sad of her..i feel for her..NOT!=p

anyways I'm LOVING SLYVESTER GARNET TOH!!!!because of him I'm letting go of my past and loving him a lot!!!thanks for the love and the care Ur giving to me!never letting you go bie!luv u my bie bie!!!!if you see properly his name is in the picture!luv him!!!!!!

luv ya bie!!!

what a day i had

GOSH!!!!!!yesterday was like a bad luck day of mine!first i had no transport to go tuition than i went manju house and i ate ice cream but it drop of my WHITE shirt than it doesn't stop there!no it does not!than i had to photostat my ic for school so manju,jerynn and me went to tanjung to photostat but no way the machine spoil then we went e-books and guess what the machine could photostat manju's ic but when it came to mine it got jam!freaking JAM UP!like why me!happen to me!in the end i finally got it photostat in another shop..THEN jerynn has to say wow amelia u had a very unlucky day and she say who knows maybe ur dad car will break down and maybe i will lose my phone and wont get to sms my bf n guess what this morning instead of me losing my phone my bf drop his phone in the water n he couldn't msg me!it came true!!!i was like omg!im gonna kill jerynn!hahaa=p!unlucky me!well i sms wilson today and we talk he promise he will celebrate my birthday with me so i hope it comes true and he doesn't want be my fren since i got a new 1 i really wonder sometimes does he love me..does he care or will it actually make a difference if i did or did not have a new bf..i waited for him for 7months and he still doesn't care..yes im still loving wilson alot but now i have to move on..my heart hurts but i need to give this guy time to help me up again..so now i loving this great guy that i have met and beyond the sadness i found happiness in him and he is my new love and the new life im holding on to....

im loving u slyvester!!!

HIM

the only person i have been thinking about and the one i love and the one who makes me fall in love again n again..





his the one that makes me go crazy about and want
but its the end
*GoodBye*

Hurts

I got together again with wilson my ex on the 18September around 2something after school..i accept him back into my life and i love him,care for him and even trust him again..it went so smoothly till yesterday 20September at around 11something as my youth n i went yamcha we broke up..i said do u love me?he say some things cant be force so i know what he means so i said we break up la ans inside of me i was hoping for him to say NO or even DON'T GO or LETS NOT BREAK UP but all he did was kept silent to himself..i knew that answer was ok..i went to the toilet in the mamak store n cry my heart out..hoping no one will notice me..than i act normal than he was going to go home..as i saw him walk away my heart cant help myself but to go and get him back..so i ran to him n say do u really want to leave me?n i cried n say please wilson don't leave me..dun leave me again..all he could say was we sms la..my heart broke and as i walk back i cant take it i just cry n cry it all out on the side of the road telling myself y is he leaving again..and my heart just breaks than i went home i went to my room and cry myself to sleep..edmund teman me to talk on the phone but my heart was bleeding badly..i cut myself..it hurts but that moment my heart hurts more than the cut..i cried till 3.30 n still could cry forever..my eye bengkak than after that we sms and he promise he will celebrate my birthday with me n i hope he keeps that promise..i really dun wan him to go but he wants too so i cant stop him all i can do is wait n cry for him hoping he will come back again into my life n really have the desire to last this n i mean really try not just go wit me but stop arguements n break ups..he to me is my lou gong n my perfect guy which i love..he forever has my heart..love could be the most beautiful thing but it can be the one which hurts u the most too..=(

langkawii!!

I came back on the wednesday!so now i have the time to update my blog!hahaa=p!well it was FUN,boring,nice,exciting,shocking n happy to me!i get to skip school for 2days which was the BEST part!omg!!BEST PART!!!hahaa=p!its my first time on a aeroplane so i was excited so on that day itself apparently i went to the airport so early which lead me rotting there for like 3hours!so i admire guys there n omg!i saw one was like so cute!he saw me looking at him i was like omg he saw me!!haha=p!i took a picture of him!well actually it was a picture of his back but who cares at least it was SOMETHING rite!!=D once we arrived we stayed in a hotel named eagle bay and the bed was big for just one person to sleep in!anyways my mum was in a good mood so she bought a lot of things like omg do u know chocolate over there is like CHEAP!!my mum wasted a lot of money on just chocolates!i ate like a pig!like who won't!and things there are cheap as well because its all duty free (tax free) i totally love langkawi!and i bought a new dress/swimming suit like dress!it can be wore as a dress n a swimming suit!it was first at 140 but the lady gave us half price so i only got it for 70bucks!no one will notice its a swimming suit unless they touch me!i mean the material of the dress!hahaa=p!and unless they read my blog!and my family n i went for the underwater world it was AWESOME!but out off all time my camera runs out of battery on me!like HELLO!i need picture's!!well i was able to take some!i shall let the pictures do all the talking for me!and i love talking today school!haha=p!no clue why!end!

too bored waiting so i took pictures of myself!haha

eating mcflurry while waiting

the cute guy i was talking about!well from the back!xD

on the plane looking out

loving the clouds!

finally!langkawi!!!

the langkawi town!

the hotel

my new dress/swimming suit

new ear rings!

chocolates!

eating belgian chocolates

smsing after that

orange flowers (:

my mum say its rare to see this flower so yeah all i know its pink flowers!lol

fish but don't really know what kind!

another one?haha

p.s:it took me a long time to drag the pictures so appreciate it people!!!

what happen yesterday

well yesterday was jerynn birthday party n the day be4 was melody's one well i was upset yesterday because of wilson...my heart just couldn't handle anymore pain so i drank n drank till 3glass of beer till i was drunk n i went nuts..yup nuts alrite..i was jus sad till i jus wanted to cry n cry..i love him so much n it hurts knowing a guy like him left me n now with another girl..my heart breaks n its still breaking..watever i do in his eyes are never right..y..y must he see it in his own way n react to his own feelings?wat about my feeling??!!



p:S anyways im looking forward to my LANGKAWI trip tmr!get to skip school!=p

the continue of just now!haha

i forgot something again!hahaa=p!wel i got another birthday person n the person is edmund!!!!!weeeeeeeeeeeee!


HAPPY BIRTHDAY EDMUND!

the continue of today

i forgotten to say in my last post that today is huishan's birthday and i just wanna wish her a big BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!so here i go again!weeeee!


HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUISHAN!

[ today is about love ]

Today im feeling so hurt!i cried the whole night last night..the guy i love so much n just after a week of break up now he got a new girl..it hurts me that he totali didn't reply my msg n calls..in the end it was because he was wit his girl..it hurts to imagine him and that girl infront of me n they are holding hands n jus having a sweet moment like i once had with him..it felt as if i was there..n wel it hurts sososo bad!then he went to see her relatives n family n it felt even more hurt coz it reminds me of once whn he took me to meet his family..he was everything i love n needed but he couldn't see that in me thats all..i gave him everything n my heart was wit him but he just gave up so easily on me..he could just let me go without feeling hurt or regret...he jus well..he just...Walk Away from my love n relationship wit him...it hurts..my feelings were like the song "fall for you" by secondhand serenade..he made me fall in love wit him again n again each day by doing the things i love n that makes me smile n laugh..eventhough tat song was a guy singing to a girl but i really feel like the singer in the song..n a guy like him is just impossible to find..but he just can't see what i feel..my heart breaks everyday more n more for him..our anniversary is coming but without him its not the same feeling anymore..i love him always n forever..i even ask my best friends to make a profile in friendster of a guy that doesn't even exist in my book named alvin so that i could tell him that i have moved on bt the fact is im still waiting for him n loving him n hurting all at the same time..but he doesn't know that this alvin guy doesn't exist at all..n it hurts me alot..knowing his heart love another..what u think?doesn't love jus sux!?!

memories im still having

[ i really love you ]

what effects friends have in someone's life

well i have lotsss of fun wit my friends..especially people like jerynn!*cough*manju*cough*!lol!well i see her everyday in school n i sit jus next to her n what made it worst is she is only 5minutes of walking distance for my HOUSE!jerynn well she is another sister of mine!another leong to the family!jerynn lim leong mae queen!hahaa=D!my house is her second house!bt i love having tis people arund!well next week is melody's n jerynn's birthday party/outing!n OMG!i have no idea what to wear!i want to wear my black dress which i love bt im so afraid i would look fat in it!i need PROFESSIONAL HELP!(not u jerynn)hahaaxD!so what should i do!well i haven upload the picture's yet but once i have i so need help on which is best!
anyways that day manju came my house n we took pic's n while doin that i pause for a second to fix my hair while she check the camera than apparently she accidently click on the snap button of the camera n then i was like what the hell happen n a picture of me fixing my hair was shown n it was NOT bad!hahaa=p!credits to manju!=]

this is the picture!cool huh!

abt TODAY!

wel today he talk to me n wel he say i love u to me today n i couldnt reasponse coz wel i was just speechless n C make him jealous by saying he love me!wel he was mostly busy abt the book!n by the way

I HATE HARRY POTTER BOOK!=p


i read his blog it was wat he felt towards me..wel it was emo bt touching in the same time!hahaa=p!bt i got to listen to monyet n turkey tat i cant fall in love wit him again!it will not b right anymore so i jus have to act normal n i mean reali NORMAL!hopefully he can move on witout me!i reali want him to move on!n wel i will say it again

I HATE HARRY POTTER BOOK!!!!

anyways today the 4 september is my beloved JERYNN birthday!!


HAPPY BIRTHDAY JERYNN LIM!!!

jus feelings =]

feelings are hard to predict n i mean really hard to predict one moment u think ur in love the next thing u know ur getting ur heart broken!anyways today is my first time blogging!hahaha=p!i know im so outdated!i been blogging on friendster which is so totali doesn't makes sense but wel at least it can be a little secret of mine!xD