Is it a good thing?

I don't know whether is it a good thing or not..well..i rejected Matt yesterday when he asked me on msn..he ask if he could be the one in my life but i said i just can't have one now and i don't think that we could actually work out..then he asked whether is that what i really want then i said Ya thats what i really want..i could see he was very disappointed..he wrote in his friendster shout out that he loves me and all and well now is just all disappointment..the problem is am i doing the right thing?i don't want him to give up on life and studies just because of this..its like as if its all my fault his like tat.. he said in his message before that its because i keep rejecting him which started to make him think that he is not a good person and that makes everyone just start to hate him..i mean is it my fault?is it really my fault?i just don't know what to do anymore..even in facebook after taking the test "Whats the first letter of the person you will fall in love with?" then i got the letter M,so i posted and said could it be?then he send me a msg saying it was supposed to be...until you rejected...so i don't know..i really hurt him but i just can't accept a guy which im not in love with and i mean really be in love or feel like yeah!i can move on with this guy now because he makes me feel different..i just don't feel that..i hope Matt will be ok because i really feel bad and this whole thing really feels like it was my fault for his sadness..but well is it my fault?:(

Speechless

I have officially gained a lot of weight..whenever I'm upset there is nothing an ice cream couldn't cure..sometimes i wonder will we ever be ok?and that are we even meant to be ok?what am i to you?someone in your life that you can lean on or just a someone?well I'm sick of it..i just want to know how you really feel about me..is tat so hard to ask?is that so hard to answer?things might not go our way but at least knowing the truth will be better..people always say there is nothing time couldn't heal but the truth is do they actually know how this love feels?i'm asking you,do you know how much it hurts?have you ever loved someone so much that just by thinking about them just simply makes you smile?makes you feel the silent love?the love that has never been felt before?well sometimes i wonder do you really really know how i feel?does you actually care?well he say he does but i don't see it..do you still love me?we will never know..=(

Its fun time

Yesterday was totally full of fun!last minute plan to go for a swim in Mazayu's house!wore clothes in the pool and as the guard pass by we all just said it was a swimming suit!like who cares not like the guard would actually strip us naked to check!hahaa=p!anyways had lotz of fun and we played chicken fight,it was Choi Yoong and Me against Maz and Billa!we won by 3-0!=D

jump!

laugh our ass off!

us

star shape!hahaxD

It's done!!

EXAM IS FINALLY OVER!!!!(;

freedom and fun here i come!!

Wedding dinner

Had a wedding dinner last night at a place called Marco and Polo,K.L and it was pretty cool!meet up with all my cousin's and apparently i related to a guy from my own very school!i never and i mean NEVER knew we were related or even cousin's to begin with!like dude your are also a prefect and u catch me everytime when I'm late for school and now we are actually related!*big slap on the face*looks like the world is small and we can be related to almost anyone..anyways there was a dish called suckling pig..weird huh?swine flu and they serve pig!it was really creepy seeing a pig looking at you while its being cut and eaten up..it totally gives the creep!favourite dish was the fish and shark fin soup!one word for it d-e-l-i-c-i-o-u-s!

after getting my hair and makeup done!(i just simply love perms)

my cousin!melanie kok!♥

shark fin soup!really gooood!

a pig died for us that night!oink..oink..ooo..in..nk...and my cousins ate the head part!*creeps*

after the wedding!i was just too bored in my room!

got to go now!its already 1:35!nitez people!(:

Tuts My Barreh

Omg!after watching this i laugh my ass off!seriously funny!i shall give this guy a 100% in his English!=D!release all the stress away!=]

It drives me MAD

keep jumping!xD

exam suxs to the max!addmaths u ask?i totally crap the whole paper!sejarah?crapped even more!!this is so not getting better!

To all mum's

Happy mother's day!!!!especially to my ♥mummy!i love you mum thanks for the care and love u gave!!!=] Ur the greatest!!!!loving u always and forever!

♥should i?

To ♥ u or not to ♥ u? should i ♥ u?

Mid Term

Exams...exams...exams...exams!!

sick and tired of studying!when will it ever end!anyways all the best everyone!

2.5.09

I went for Lee Hom's concert and the people there say no camera and cannot freaking record!but seriously!it was awesome like HELL!there was one part that all four of the musicians are all Lee Hom i mean they all have the same freaking face!a total trick which was so awesome!opening act was Daniel Lee (choi yoong's number 1 lover) and another girl singer,no clue who it was..then after the concert ended i was freaking tired because i had to walk with Joey to Grace car which was like a 30mins walk!but well on the way walking i got lucky and found 5dollars!hehe(;but anyways i got a record of the promo tour instead where he sang heartbeat!awesome!enjoy!IFLY LEE HOM!

waited since afternoon!


here he is!hot!


singing heartbeat

Lee Hom!(sorry for the shakiness i was too happy!=p)