HIM

the only person i have been thinking about and the one i love and the one who makes me fall in love again n again..





his the one that makes me go crazy about and want
but its the end
*GoodBye*

Hurts

I got together again with wilson my ex on the 18September around 2something after school..i accept him back into my life and i love him,care for him and even trust him again..it went so smoothly till yesterday 20September at around 11something as my youth n i went yamcha we broke up..i said do u love me?he say some things cant be force so i know what he means so i said we break up la ans inside of me i was hoping for him to say NO or even DON'T GO or LETS NOT BREAK UP but all he did was kept silent to himself..i knew that answer was ok..i went to the toilet in the mamak store n cry my heart out..hoping no one will notice me..than i act normal than he was going to go home..as i saw him walk away my heart cant help myself but to go and get him back..so i ran to him n say do u really want to leave me?n i cried n say please wilson don't leave me..dun leave me again..all he could say was we sms la..my heart broke and as i walk back i cant take it i just cry n cry it all out on the side of the road telling myself y is he leaving again..and my heart just breaks than i went home i went to my room and cry myself to sleep..edmund teman me to talk on the phone but my heart was bleeding badly..i cut myself..it hurts but that moment my heart hurts more than the cut..i cried till 3.30 n still could cry forever..my eye bengkak than after that we sms and he promise he will celebrate my birthday with me n i hope he keeps that promise..i really dun wan him to go but he wants too so i cant stop him all i can do is wait n cry for him hoping he will come back again into my life n really have the desire to last this n i mean really try not just go wit me but stop arguements n break ups..he to me is my lou gong n my perfect guy which i love..he forever has my heart..love could be the most beautiful thing but it can be the one which hurts u the most too..=(

langkawii!!

I came back on the wednesday!so now i have the time to update my blog!hahaa=p!well it was FUN,boring,nice,exciting,shocking n happy to me!i get to skip school for 2days which was the BEST part!omg!!BEST PART!!!hahaa=p!its my first time on a aeroplane so i was excited so on that day itself apparently i went to the airport so early which lead me rotting there for like 3hours!so i admire guys there n omg!i saw one was like so cute!he saw me looking at him i was like omg he saw me!!haha=p!i took a picture of him!well actually it was a picture of his back but who cares at least it was SOMETHING rite!!=D once we arrived we stayed in a hotel named eagle bay and the bed was big for just one person to sleep in!anyways my mum was in a good mood so she bought a lot of things like omg do u know chocolate over there is like CHEAP!!my mum wasted a lot of money on just chocolates!i ate like a pig!like who won't!and things there are cheap as well because its all duty free (tax free) i totally love langkawi!and i bought a new dress/swimming suit like dress!it can be wore as a dress n a swimming suit!it was first at 140 but the lady gave us half price so i only got it for 70bucks!no one will notice its a swimming suit unless they touch me!i mean the material of the dress!hahaa=p!and unless they read my blog!and my family n i went for the underwater world it was AWESOME!but out off all time my camera runs out of battery on me!like HELLO!i need picture's!!well i was able to take some!i shall let the pictures do all the talking for me!and i love talking today school!haha=p!no clue why!end!

too bored waiting so i took pictures of myself!haha

eating mcflurry while waiting

the cute guy i was talking about!well from the back!xD

on the plane looking out

loving the clouds!

finally!langkawi!!!

the langkawi town!

the hotel

my new dress/swimming suit

new ear rings!

chocolates!

eating belgian chocolates

smsing after that

orange flowers (:

my mum say its rare to see this flower so yeah all i know its pink flowers!lol

fish but don't really know what kind!

another one?haha

p.s:it took me a long time to drag the pictures so appreciate it people!!!

what happen yesterday

well yesterday was jerynn birthday party n the day be4 was melody's one well i was upset yesterday because of wilson...my heart just couldn't handle anymore pain so i drank n drank till 3glass of beer till i was drunk n i went nuts..yup nuts alrite..i was jus sad till i jus wanted to cry n cry..i love him so much n it hurts knowing a guy like him left me n now with another girl..my heart breaks n its still breaking..watever i do in his eyes are never right..y..y must he see it in his own way n react to his own feelings?wat about my feeling??!!



p:S anyways im looking forward to my LANGKAWI trip tmr!get to skip school!=p

the continue of just now!haha

i forgot something again!hahaa=p!wel i got another birthday person n the person is edmund!!!!!weeeeeeeeeeeee!


HAPPY BIRTHDAY EDMUND!

the continue of today

i forgotten to say in my last post that today is huishan's birthday and i just wanna wish her a big BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!so here i go again!weeeee!


HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUISHAN!

[ today is about love ]

Today im feeling so hurt!i cried the whole night last night..the guy i love so much n just after a week of break up now he got a new girl..it hurts me that he totali didn't reply my msg n calls..in the end it was because he was wit his girl..it hurts to imagine him and that girl infront of me n they are holding hands n jus having a sweet moment like i once had with him..it felt as if i was there..n wel it hurts sososo bad!then he went to see her relatives n family n it felt even more hurt coz it reminds me of once whn he took me to meet his family..he was everything i love n needed but he couldn't see that in me thats all..i gave him everything n my heart was wit him but he just gave up so easily on me..he could just let me go without feeling hurt or regret...he jus well..he just...Walk Away from my love n relationship wit him...it hurts..my feelings were like the song "fall for you" by secondhand serenade..he made me fall in love wit him again n again each day by doing the things i love n that makes me smile n laugh..eventhough tat song was a guy singing to a girl but i really feel like the singer in the song..n a guy like him is just impossible to find..but he just can't see what i feel..my heart breaks everyday more n more for him..our anniversary is coming but without him its not the same feeling anymore..i love him always n forever..i even ask my best friends to make a profile in friendster of a guy that doesn't even exist in my book named alvin so that i could tell him that i have moved on bt the fact is im still waiting for him n loving him n hurting all at the same time..but he doesn't know that this alvin guy doesn't exist at all..n it hurts me alot..knowing his heart love another..what u think?doesn't love jus sux!?!

memories im still having

[ i really love you ]

what effects friends have in someone's life

well i have lotsss of fun wit my friends..especially people like jerynn!*cough*manju*cough*!lol!well i see her everyday in school n i sit jus next to her n what made it worst is she is only 5minutes of walking distance for my HOUSE!jerynn well she is another sister of mine!another leong to the family!jerynn lim leong mae queen!hahaa=D!my house is her second house!bt i love having tis people arund!well next week is melody's n jerynn's birthday party/outing!n OMG!i have no idea what to wear!i want to wear my black dress which i love bt im so afraid i would look fat in it!i need PROFESSIONAL HELP!(not u jerynn)hahaaxD!so what should i do!well i haven upload the picture's yet but once i have i so need help on which is best!
anyways that day manju came my house n we took pic's n while doin that i pause for a second to fix my hair while she check the camera than apparently she accidently click on the snap button of the camera n then i was like what the hell happen n a picture of me fixing my hair was shown n it was NOT bad!hahaa=p!credits to manju!=]

this is the picture!cool huh!

abt TODAY!

wel today he talk to me n wel he say i love u to me today n i couldnt reasponse coz wel i was just speechless n C make him jealous by saying he love me!wel he was mostly busy abt the book!n by the way

I HATE HARRY POTTER BOOK!=p


i read his blog it was wat he felt towards me..wel it was emo bt touching in the same time!hahaa=p!bt i got to listen to monyet n turkey tat i cant fall in love wit him again!it will not b right anymore so i jus have to act normal n i mean reali NORMAL!hopefully he can move on witout me!i reali want him to move on!n wel i will say it again

I HATE HARRY POTTER BOOK!!!!

anyways today the 4 september is my beloved JERYNN birthday!!


HAPPY BIRTHDAY JERYNN LIM!!!

jus feelings =]

feelings are hard to predict n i mean really hard to predict one moment u think ur in love the next thing u know ur getting ur heart broken!anyways today is my first time blogging!hahaha=p!i know im so outdated!i been blogging on friendster which is so totali doesn't makes sense but wel at least it can be a little secret of mine!xD